A couple of weeks ago I was laying in bed going over the past year in my head. Years, to be exact. At the ending of 2019 I attended a vision board party where I set out to work towards the things I believe God has spoken over my life for this year. I thought about all that I set out to do, all that I had hoped God would do and all He had given me a vision for. As I went down my "5 year plan list" and compared it to His vision for my life I realized my life, now, looked nothing like my 5 year plan.
In an attempt to be H.O.T. ( honest, open, transparent) in that moment I heard the enemy whisper " look at all God hasn't given you". I took the bait and went down the rabbit hole. I reflected on the dreams I had versus the ones God has for me. I'm slowly approaching 33 years of age and I had plans to be happily married with at least 3 kids by now. Just living that American white picket fence dream. If you have followed my story for some time now you know that my life took a turn 3 years ago. All those hopes and dreams came to a halt when I was faced with a dismantling marriage that ended in divorce.
A wave of sadness came over me and I suddenly felt forgotten. I felt angry and overlooked. That spirit of an abandoned child came crashing over me like a wave. I laid in bed pouting and crying like a toddler struggling to grasp the concept of time. If any of you have children you know what I mean. Sometimes I tell my son he has to wait for something and he goes into a full tantrum and says " but 5 minutes is FORRRRREEEVVVERRR mommy"!
Forever. Sometimes the wait feels like forever.
Sometimes, the wait feels like never.
Sometimes, the wait feels like I have been over looked. Like a game of dodge ball when everyone gets picked before you. At times it feels like God is handing out blessings to all those around me while I sit patiently yet I'm growing impatiently inside. Pick me, God. Pick me!
The enemy had me believing I was overlooked, forgotten, and unimportant for days. Then the Lord reminded me of something that happened a few days earlier and used that to minister to me. The Sunday prior I had realized I ran out of Chick Fil A ice. I went to order a few 5 lbs bags of ice on the app and remembered they are not open on Sundays. A few hours later as I was looking for what to cook for dinner I took a trip out back to my shed where I have a deep freezer of an assortment of food. As I opened the freezer I was taken by surprise when I found two 5 lbs bags of Chick Fil A ice. I don't even remember when I purchased those bags of ice.
My God!! The supplier of all things including Chick Fil A ice !!
As He reminded me of this He said to me " Erika, I have a storehouse of blessings with your name on it in heaven. I have not forgotten you.". I was completely undone in that moment. A storehouse with my name on it? I'm believing that for myself and you! God has a storehouse full of blessings for us all. In this storehouse is everything we can ever imagine. There are financial blessings, healing, divine connections, provision, resources, divine appointments and so much more. All we could ever need is stored in this warehouse ready to be deposited all in God's timing. God's timing, not our timing.
The Lord assured me that night that he has not forgotten me and he hasn't forgotten you either. His words tell us this in many places but one that I hold dear to my heart is Philippians 4:19
" and the same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus".
Friends, when we have reached the end of our rope, hope and resources, God provides. Just when we think there is no way, He makes a way! God is never late, but always on time. Hang on tight and I promise you the wait wont ever be in vain.
I want to leave you with this last verse " Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you". Deuteronomy 31:6
Sometimes, life trips us up, and kicks us down but in those times we can lean on a Father who will never leave us high and dry. We never have to face those times alone because his word says he will never leave us, forsake us, or forget about us. God will never turn his back on us or close the doors to his storehouse. When you start to feel the weight of your circumstances and wonder where God is with your miracle remember that his time is impeccable.
Precise to be exact.